Throughout our whole lives, it seems, people are constantly asking what you want to be when you grow up, or what you wan to do. I've always just though, oh I have time. Only it just keeps getting more and more real. That's the scary part.
I've already managed to stress myself out, so much. With everyone talking about the future, it's crazy to think that we're handed so many options, and expected to choose one single path. What if it's the wrong one? What if I'm not good at it? Ultimately, will it be worth it? It's all so overwhelming. I also managed to just take a step back though, focusing on other things.
Even within the past month, by not focusing on the future and by not pressuring myself to make decisions, I've learned so much more about myself. I'm realizing that maybe, the subjects I've always done well and always liked, don't have to be the ones that I pursue or make a career out of.
What's really interested me lately isn't the typical math or english, but cultural diversity and different religions. I've always found those subjects to be interesting - Folkorama is probably my favorite thing that goes on in Winnipeg - only I've never thought much of it, until now. I think I've finally found a hopeful possibility. Or at least an area of study.
What really got me about that was the stepping back from the future and living for the present moment. For me right now it's the fact I'm living in the past. I've been wishing for a few weeks now that things could go back to the way things were. So I want to thank you for making me realize again that I need to live for now not for then. On another note I am also particular interested in the same things you are, but I'm also interested quite a bit in spirituality. So I was wondering if you have any spiritual beliefs or religion you subscribe to. I know it's a touchy subject for some people, but I hope you don't mind. My belief system goes everything is connected by a force and I think that force is love. I think love it the most important thing in our entire world.
ReplyDeleteI'm not sure what's worse, living in the past or living in the future. Living in the present can sometimes be harder than it seems. I really like your take on belief though, how everything is connected by love. Without love, what would the world be? Personally, I've never practiced any religion or thought too much about it. Up until recently anyway. My boyfriend is Hindu, and before I knew nearly nothing about the religion. Knowing a little more now, it makes a lot more sense than anything I've learned or known previously. Seeing as it's more a way of life than anything else.
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